Saturday, March 03, 2007

Quilting Doubts

So, in preparation for the new addition which is slow cooking in my belly, I've decided I must make a keepsake for him/her. A couple weeks ago, I went a little crazy in the quilting store down the street from us and picked up a collection of bright cheerful fabrics to get going on my a baby quilt. I figured these colours would all look so cute together and appeared to coordinate perfectly at the store. Well, here I am in the middle of fabric squares, realizing that the colours just don't jive all that well. I have spent several evenings putting patch next to patch trying to figure out how I am going to make this work, but I'm just not happy at all with any results. This quilt will be completed, the only problem is I don't know if I will actually want to keep it. At any rate, I will keep you posted and share the finished product once I get there.


You may be wondering why I am not knitting up a storm for this baby - considering I made this for my nephew and these cuties for friend's babies. I must share with you that since I've found myself pregnant, I cannot stomach knitting. Yes, this is very bizarre, but every time I sit down and try to knit a row, I get ultra nauseous - similar to how I'd feel if I were on a small boat in a torrential ocean storm. How can that be? Initially I thought it would pass after the 1st trimester, thinking that it was all related to morning sickness; but, I am now 5 months along and still I suffer from this horrible ailment. I am beginning to think this baby does not want me to knit - I'm not sure what he/she has against it, but it certainly is opinionated. We're definitely going to have a chat about that when we meet in July.

(**Please stop reading now if you are tired of my pregnancy babbles...)
In other pregnancy news, I am gaining weight at super scary speed and this baby is growing faster than I imagined. The doctor has assured me that this weight gain is pretty normal due to the size of our fetus; Cletus is going to be a big baby according the U/S measurements. Sounds like we can expect a whopping 8lb. baby. All things appear healthy, but I can't help but become overly self-conscious about all the fat that is being deposited on my body. I've always maintained my weight and this is the first time I've felt powerless about it. Poor Hubby is so tired of me complaining about my growing hips, butt and belly. I am working on my attitude to simply surrender my body to this little person growing inside me...but let me tell you, it is tough! I really had no idea it would be so difficult to let go of my body. Did any other moms out there struggle with this? I just know that I'm going to have a lot of work ahead of me after this baby comes if I want to get into my favourite jeans again. Bring on the challenge!

10 comments:

Allison said...

oh i definitely know how you feel! i too had always been thin, but when i got pregnant i started gaining weight much faster than the books said i should and i worried about it until the end. i think that was the hardest part about being pregnant - watching your body change and morph and really not having any control over it at all - there was one month when i gained 16 pounds in one month despite having carefully watched what i ate and exercised (swimming, walking, stationary bikes) every day. i shed many tears. but, here's what i would say now having been through it all: don't worry about it. just try to enjoy being pregnant and trust that your body knows what it is doing. i had a very healthy 9 pound baby and while i never dreamed i would have such a big baby, it all worked out perfectly. in all i gained a terrible 60 pounds, far more than average, and for someone who has always been very thin it was hard. but, losing it hasn't been hard - 25 pounds disappeared in the hospital when the baby was born. and now, seven months later i am back in all of my pre-baby clothes again and i really haven't put that much work into it. i walk to class everyday, do yoga 2 or 3 times a week, haul my big ol' baby around (really builds arm muscle you know!), and hold off on dessert most of the time. i know it is hard to just surrender and watch it all happen, but after it was all over for me i really did wish i had spent a bit more time just enjoying and a lot less worrying about the weight and the stretch marks. hope this helps at least a little bit and my enormous weight gain story doesn't freak you out more than my happy weight loss story. feel better! it will be worth it and that is probably the most comforting thought of all!

Anonymous said...

With all the love floating around the baby and you and your hubby, surrender seems to be a pretty good option. Enjoy the ride and have a safe and wonderful journey. (smile)

flossy-p said...

hehehe, I though Love Squalor would have wise advice on this subject ;)
I can't offer any advice as I haven't been thruogh it yet, but I have noticed that all of my thin friends who have had children (and worried about their weight gain) were all looking back to normal (actually, way too gorgeous sometimes) after about 10 months. I'm sure it'll take time, but you'll be fine.

Also, I think those quilt fabrics look excellent together! Make that quilt, I bet it will look beautiful. Things always do once they're finished.

Anonymous said...

Hey thanks all! You have made me feel so much better :) It's nice to know that there are other people out there who don't exactly fit into the ideal pregnancy mold that the books all outline. I'm so relieved!

Anonymous said...

Hi Sally, I don't know how I missed this post, I guess my bloglines wasn't working properly. Anyhow, although I don't know much about pregnancy, I hope you can enjoy the process and how wonderful it is to have a life growing inside you! Never mind the weight gain, I say 'Bring It On!' You can always exercise later right? I'm sure there'll be a lot of running around when this little precious thing arrive in July. Hey, my sis is having her 5th, maybe I should ask her... About the quilt, I'm sure your baby will love it whether it clashes or not! Have fun.

islandarts said...

I was Gestational diabetic during both of my pregnancies which meant (for me) lots of shots and an UBER strict diet. I only gained 15 lbs with my first and 0 (Zero) lbs with my second.
There was one sugar free chocolate bar alloted to me and my belly every night during those pregnancies!!
I quickly gained the weight back that I had lost during the pregnancy... so there is no justice in the universe!!

Anonymous said...

Hey Sandra,
Don't wory about the weight for sure. After sam i was back down to my post baby size in a few months. (Too bad about having the others!!:) )
Well I have lost your email address. could you please send it again. so I don't have to write to you in public?
thanks,
Kirsty (mike says hi and are you home this summer? I will remind him of the baby now!!! men.)
xo

Anonymous said...

Maybe the colour is off on my computer but the squares you picked for the quilt are sooo cute together!!
Kirsty

Anonymous said...

Kirsty email me at this address:
stournemille@gmail.com. I don't have your email either, so hopefully you will come back and see this :)
thanks for your comments!!

Anonymous said...

Hey Sandra, just checking out your blog as we haven't heard from you guys in a while. Give Jennifer a call, she'd absolutely LOVE to help you figure out the quilt.

Good to hear the pregnancy is going well, Love to you and Harry (and mini-you)

Trevor&Jen