Thursday, July 10, 2008

Back to Reality

So, the year long honeymoon, also known as my maternity leave, has ended. I have been thrown back into reality, a daily rat race complete with crowded trains, cubicles and cold saran wrap sandwiches. No more happy baby gurgles to greet after nap, no more funny smiles or sloppy baby kisses. Instead, my days are filled with the corporate jargon of the hour and the painful drone of my computer.

It has been a tough first week back at work. I still have friday to get through before the precious weekend with my family. But Simone has been a trooper! She has handled this transition with relative ease, all the credit goes to her wonderful Papa who has chosen to be her main caregiver while I bring home the bacon. (And Oh, how we've missed those paychecks!) They have spent the week frolicking about the neighbourhood - walks to the park, hikes by the ocean and visits to the YMCA. They're having a blast, and I must admit I feel like I'm missing out! I call them at least 3 times a day to see what is going on.
Mr. Hubby, who I shall now refer to as Papa Harry, has decided to journal his new role as Mr. Mom. He's created a brand new blog where he relays all the crazy situations from the day, and I think it may help me feel a little less out of the loop. If you want a chuckle, you should go there immediately! Many silly situations are a-brewing when Mom leaves the house.

In the meantime, I will be updating this blog as I can. This is a stressful time and we all need to adjust. I'd love to knit or draw to ease some of the tension, but the reality is that I'm running at fully speed until 9pm and by then I just want to put my feet up and watch some mind numbing reality show. I do hope it gets easier soon because leaving the house each morning brings on the worst knot of anxiety I've had in a long time. I hate missing out. I hate saying goodbye to my family. But I just keep telling myself, going to work is the best thing I can do for my family right now. It will make me a better mom...right? Suddenly I can relate to all those articles about the "guilty working mom". Well, here's hoping my next post has lots of happy times to share! Now go over the Papa Harry's blog and have a laugh :)


Harry Tournemille said...

And yet, like I presume so many other working moms to be, you are an outstanding mother. Simone literally falls into apoplectic fits when she finally greets you at the end of the day.
And here at home, amidst all the silliness, there is a void, vast and true and forever in want. The highlight of the day being a trip to bring Mom and Wifey home.

Theresa said...

I hear you.


babelfish said...

You get a year-long maternity leave over there? wow. Hope you settle back into the work routine soon, I can imagine that so much has changed and you go back a different person...thinking of you.x (don't worry, your hubby sounds wonderful)

Love Squalor said...

big hugs to you. this whole mom thing comes with guilt and heartache by the handfuls, no matter what the parenting situation is. but it's worth it. i hope you are easing in to this transition well.

simone's smile is the sweetest thing!

flossy-p said...

Sounds like a difficult transition for you, but it also seems like you have wonderful family support from Mr Mum and Simone. As they say, keep calm and carry on. You're doing a fantastic job!